if you want love I'm the one to talk to, baby you know it's true.

Big fuckin downward spiral. On the uprise? I fuckin hope so. FUCK.

I've watched 2 season of the X-Files which inspired a major celebrity crush on David Duchovny, and then the first season of Californication. Movies I've watched recently are Spread which was actually pretty good. I started it for some Ashton eye-candy, and was sold when in the opening voice over he said, "I don't mean to sound arrogant but I'm an incredibly attractive man. I can't help it, but I am." His deepend voice and a wardrobe that goes beyong douche bag status made the film so worth watching.

Also, Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus (which was awesome), Inception (five stars), Day and Knight (incredibly mediocre, but kind of humorous) and Death at a Funeral (The British and American version - and as a matter of opinion, the British version TRUMPS the hell out of the American one. The only thing the US version had going for it for me was the preference of certain actors over others. James Marsden for example is much better looking than Alan Tudyk).

One more thing I need to say. I was watching Blue Planet last night and David Attenborough was talking about deep sea fish and out of nowhere he whispers in the creepiest way possible, "come into my mouth little fishie." I legitimately snorted and had to rewind to make sure I heard it right.

Taking it All the Way - U.S.E.

if only love was enough, I would reach you.

New post.. new post.. new post. What do I want to say? I want a time machine, that's for sure. Go back in time and play it cool the way I planned instead of frantically throwing myself on the limb and scaring away all sane people who may have loved me. That's how shit goes down for me. I test the waters and if I like the temperature I throw myself in flailing. Some people find this philosophy refreshing.. most find it too forward and just plain crazy. Welcome to my life. So goodbye J.S. and hello loneliness.

I think it's healthy to balance every negative thing with a positive thing, so here's my high: I've successfully been going to the gym every day now for a month. I take Saturday and Sunday off, but Monday-Friday you can bet your bottom dollar I'll be there! And I'm feeling pretty good about myself.

Lost - Aqualung

reach out your hand and I'll make you mine.

I'm learning what NOT to wear at the moment. Although I think it's safe to say that I'm not going to be drowning in sweatpants and bad jeans anytime soon. I think I'm a pretty savvy dresser.

The other day I was running around on a rooftop and I realized that the only way to get down was to jump 10 feet. So I did. And I'm pretty sure I sprained my ankle. To make it better I worked a double yesterday so I was running around and around allllll day and now it just hurts.

4th of July was awesome! I spent the evening with 2 lovely ladies from work and we went down to Bellevue and watched the fireworks show and colored pictures :) During the fireworks there was an orchestra and they played a medley from Phantom of the Opera AND the theme from Rocky! It was epic. They also played a bunch of Sousa marches, ugh.. but they were very fitting.

Everything's Magic - Blink 182